Episode 4: The Road to Recovery - Part 1: The Descent
CW: This episode of the podcast has a content warning for descriptions of acute mental distress and suicidal ideation
My original plan for this episode was to talk about what recovery looks and feels like. But the more I thought about it, the more I realised that in order to do the subject of recovery justice, I needed to dive deep into what I've been recovering from.
I remembered that I had some diaries from one of the periods when I was most unwell. I'd had good intentions of documenting what I was experiencing because it felt strange and alien; I was undergoing several changes to my medication and the effects (and side-effects) were at times alarming.
So this, shorter, episode mostly comprises some entries from diaries from July to December, 2016. Nearly two years down the road it's extremely gratifying to see that I went through that and came out the other side. It was a long and tough slog, for sure, but here I am: newly discharged from Community Mental Health Team care and celebrating the fact that this little podcast has had over 1200 downloads to date!
As I mentioned above, this episode has a content warning due to the extreme levels of distress I was experiencing. It's honest and raw and I understand that it won't be for everyone; that's fine - but please stay tuned for Part Two which will focus on what I did (and didn't do) to move from that dark and desperate place to where I am today.
If you're experiencing a mental health crisis, or need to talk to someone, here is a list of international crisis support lines. I've linked to the Wiki page in the hope that this resource remains as current and relevant as possible.
As always, thank you for your support of Me and My Brain (did I mention there have been over 1200 downloads so far?!) It's good to know that someone somewhere is finding my little podcast useful, helpful and possibly even entertaining at times. Thank you.
If you've enjoyed the podcast and would like to help me in running it, you can buy me a coffee by clicking right here. I don't currently use advertising revenue to support my work, and I'm entirely self-funded. Again, thank you.